My loved ones

I have many loved ones that have passed.  I do think about them and try to talk to my grandma and grandpa a lot.  I pray for inspiration and guidance but I don't know if I am following what they want me to do so I don't know if they are listening anymore.  I was watching BDevine at work this week and I tried to do some meditation.  But seriously how can I do that at work when I am worried if someone is going to walk in needing me to help them.  I need to find some time to do more meditation.  Does anyone have any advice for me? 

Dead Files

I have found my self watching more things having to do with people passing.  Long Island Medium, The Haunting of.., Dead Files, Ghost Adventures, etc.  I think my husband things I am crazy sometimes.  I just like hearing the stories, I like the idea of being able to help people with the people that have passed.  I think it would be very interesting helping spirits that need to move on or counseling.  I don't really know what that is called but I think it would be nice.  But than again I don't know, I am sure people who can connect to spirit might say other wise.  Either way, I will try to develop my self with no expectations other than better self awareness.  Wish me luck!!

Love and light,

Candice

Wow where did the time go???

Okay, I want to apologize for not getting back to this blog.  I have gone through a lot of ups and downs over the past year.  Wow, 2014!  Can't believe it!  Well, as far as my meditations and spiritual advances I am sorry to say that they have fallen by the way side but never forgotten.  I do sage my home occasionally.  That leads me to one of the weirdest things that happened to me after I got done using the sage. 

I felt like I cleared and cleansed myself before I began.  I was putting out positive energy the whole time.  I got every corner of my house, I know I did I made sure.  For some reason I felt like there was some negative energy here.  So anyway, I got done.  Sat on the couch enjoying the Sage smell while my husbands nose is squinching because of the smell. Well, I honestly don't remember what my husband said but all I know is I exploded!  I started screaming and yelling, I think at some point I even walked out the door and didn't want to come back!  I swear I looked like a She Devil at the time.  Who all knows what was coming out of my mouth.  I wasn't able to come down from that until the next day.  It was very odd, no not odd, it was scary.  I honestly don't know what happened, did I open myself up to much with not enough protection?  If any of you know please I am open to suggestions or comments by all means.  But I am honestly a little afraid to do it again. 

Any suggestions please, I enjoy using Sage and trying to make my home a positive energy.

Love and Light to You

Friends

Well, I went to visit a friend who is in the hospital on bed rest. She is an amazing person, and a person that can bring the best out of someone.  I go because its her birthday, we talk, I break down emotionally lol (if any of you know me directly you know that I am VERY emotional).  We talk and talk and she builds me back up.  She always has, I felt bad for doing that on her birthday but she never made me feel bad about it.

Some things that I re-learned when talking to her today was wonderful.  I say re-learned because I already knew this myself, but sometimes it helps to hear it from someone else.  I am so happy I went to see her because she reminded me about patience, and understanding.  That the world doesn't see things through Candice Goggles and that sometimes the best thing to say is nothing.  Keep on moving forward and try to keep a smile on your face. I know that sometimes it gets hard.  Focus on what you do have instead of what you dont.  Be happy with the choices you make, if you regret your choices and there is nothing that you can do than move forward and make the next choices even better!  I just thought I would share with yall a little bit of what I was remind of today!!

Love and Light to you!!
Candice

Moving Forward!!

Good morning everyone!  So I had a hard night last night.  I had a very bad headache last night I am thinking do to the dust in the air from all of the moving.  Then some rather saddening events happened and it caused me to question myself.  Not only my self but my position in my life.  I am not going into detail but when I tell you it was very hard for me, it was.  I decided to apply my learning's to my situation.  I didn't want to keep feeling this way so I decided to forgive and move forward.  That's what I kept having to tell myself last night while laying in bed.  That is the thoughts that came in my head this morning when I woke up.  So what I am going to have to apply in my life is starting to let go, and move forward. Yes I still have thoughts and questions that go through my head about what could I have done to prevent this and why did it happen.  But then I shake my head and go no, there is no point in looking back!  Keep moving forward!  It is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do because I tend to take something and inflate it I guess.  But my emotions really get bruised easy, and anyone who knows me well knows that I wear my emotions and heart out on my sleeve.  But keep moving forward!!  I hope that maybe if you are going through something in your life try to let it go if you can, and keep moving me forward!! 

Love and Light to y'all!!!

Candice

Hard Weekend!

Hello wonderful people!

So today haven't really been able to do much spiritual learning.  I have been moving all day into a new apartment!  But I have been trying to practice keeping my inner peace hehe.  Anyone who has moved themselves knows what I am talking about.  What I am really trying to work on right now is trying to take out all of the negative things I feel that influence me but things I do that influence me.  Examples? Like cussing, and thinking negatively all of the time, and being jealous of others.  For example, I have noticed that there are a lot of beautiful and young girls in my new apartment complex.  My first thought was to get all bitter, next thought was to get jealous, and of course the worrying followed.  I had to stop, breath and realize, just because they are young, and yes maybe beautiful that doesn't meant everything.  And Jason is married to me!  I know he loves me and would NEVER stray like that so what was I really worried about?  It is all me, in my head.  So I am trying to let those things go.  This is going to have to be a short blog.  I have a wicked headache, I don't know if I will be able to do my smudging this evening.  Oh, um smudging is where you cleanse a space or home of negative energy or spirits.  If you are interested in more I will let you know.  I am going to post a video on my facebook account if you are interested and in seeing how it goes.  Well, have a good night!
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Love and Light to you,

Candice

First Day of Awakening

First Day of Awakening

First off, thank you for taking the time to read this.  I do not claim to be a good writer, or someone who is skilled at speaking.  Most of the time when I write I just think of the top of my head and it ends up on the page.  I keep forgetting this isn't a formal paper where I have to worry about open titles and descriptions.  But I do want to let you know a little bit of who I am, and why I have decided to write on this blog. 

My name is Candice and I am going to be hitting the 30 year mark pretty soon.  I am married to my loving husband Jason.  We live in a small apartment on the outskirts of  San Antonio, TX.  I have always thought there was nothing really special to me, always thinking that everyone else was so much more lucky than I am because of what they had or what was happening in their lives.  I have started trying to re-evaluate my life right now because I have found my self in a position to where I (having nothing to do with family or anyone else) feel lost.  I feel like I am at a flat point of my life.  Like something is missing.  Really if I must be honest with you, I have always felt like something was missing.  Going in and out of certain religions, positions, and places.  Never truly finding what made me...well me.  Then I found B.Devine from Devine Miracles.  I was playing on YouTube and just found myself on her page one day listening to her talk and noticing there was like a glow around her.  I found myself yearning for that.  Wanting to be her and how she was so at peace with herself and life and the passion in her eyes gave me hope.  Last night she put out a prediction for April, and I swear even though everyone says this, but it was like she was talking just to me.  I had been looking into ways of centering my self, finding out my spirituality, and how to make my life more meaningful and open to me.  It hit me that what this wonderful woman is doing, teaching people about how to do this and learning more about themselves, and to live more positively in their lives.  I want to do this, I have always known that I have had a calling to help people.  And I myself am empathic even though my abilities are not as strong as they once were. 

So this is what this blog is about.  I want to share my journey with you.  I want to share how I am personally over coming my struggles with myself, and the knowledge that I am learning from day to do on things that I want to do to improve myself and my abilities.  It is going to be one of the hardest things that I have ever done I am sure.  I tend to be my own road block.  But I need to put that all in the past.  So these are the things that I am trying to work on for this month.

1. Look for patterns in your life that are weighing you down.

2.See past problems, and turn what you see as problems into wins.

3.Dont' feel pressured to feel a certain way.

4.Let others think what they want to think, and don't Judge others.

5.Pay attention to your guy feelings.

6.Learn all you can about your inner power.

7.Stay away from those that tell you that they are strong and you are weak.

8.Visions are going to start expanding, pay attention to your dreams.

9.Stand in your power.

10.Stop beating yourself up!

11.Stop comparing yourself!

So yes it is a long list but I can do it!  If some of you would like to join me on this journey please let me know!  I just want to let y'all know, that I have no certain religion.  I learn from all around me, past and present.  From traditions of the Native Americans and more.  I do tend to follow more natural methods of faith.  But I am open to learning more and I will learn more.  I will be trying new things and seeing if they work for me and if they don't I will just go from there.  My first thing that i am going to be trying is learning to center myself, and trying to see auras.  As an empathic I can generally pick up on people very well (except for my husband!  It is so frustrating!), but I also want to be able to see the emotions a little better. I know it is in me, it is just going to take a process of getting it out! Well, I think I have said a lot.  If any of you have any ideas that will be able to help me, or if you have already have taken this journey and have advice PLEASE I am a open book!  Thank you! 

Love and light be with you!

Candice